.im the supergirl.

Wednesday, 27 June 2007

bothered no more, just a lil hurt..

hmm i dont think im bothered anymore cos that friend that i really valued alot, replied with an answer that somehow hurt me kinda bad. the one single reason is that, i value friendship.

he said that hes forsaking this friendship cos he only wants to talk to his gf and not any other girls. and he chose to delete me out of so many other female friends that he has had contact with. this hurt somehow, to know that a friendship i valued, is to be so easily destroyed; on another thought, probably our friendship was never existant to him.

we used to enjoy talks through the night and i recall once, i changed my handphone number and i didnt tell many people abt it. he was worried, and he called me at home, of which i did not even give him the number. he'd used to comfort me when i was down and low, and he cheered me up in an instant. jokes were like a normal dialogue to him, and he really made me laugh. and a couple of weeks ago, he was still telling me about his gf being angry when he had a female friend call, and that he really wanted to make that relationship work. i appreciate that he was serious about her.

and now, a couple of weeks later, he cuts off all connections with me, without even leaving a reason for me to ponder over. i asked, and thankfully he replied. i acquired the answer which explains all, although it does leave me pondering over not what i have done wrong. But instead, whether the reason he gave me was the truth and whole truth.

im sure he is contented with what he has now, although hes made someone in his life disappear so ever easily as if that person was never intended to stay. it is clearly or probably not entirely his fault, moreover, hes said 'sorry'. anyone will know that 'sorry' isnt gonna mean anything. but we all know without it, it just makes things even more incomplete.

and probably, that one meaningless 'sorry' symbolises the fullstop to this once beautiful and endearing friendship.
period.

i thank you for being truthful.
i thank you for following your heart.
i thank you for valuing your love.
i thank you for everything we've had.
i thank you.

:: 'sorry' is a word too often used, that we never know the true meaning of saying it anymore. ::

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