.im the supergirl.

Saturday, 15 December 2007

indebted

what is totally wrong with some guys nowadays? one of my exs proposed to me 2-3 months ago, another one suddenly messaged me in msn today and asked, "do you know i really love you alot?" both are from almost 3 years back.. whats the deal? you didnt cherish me like you should 3 years ago, and who are you to think that i will actually believe we would live happily ever after?

you are so damn wrong.

if i thought we could have survived all ordeals, and made it to the top and gotten married, i would have never suggested the break. to me, a formal breakup is the last thing every couple should do. to take a breather or a short separation would be better.. but when its really over the limit, a breakup is a breakup.

dont even think that by explaining to me, how you wanted to provide for me and felt like a failure when you couldnt, so now you wanna marry me, cos you can provide for me, then id be wavered.

i dont fucking need anyone to provide for me, im superbly fine on my own.. if my main concern was to have someone providing for me, hence getting hitched, then why was i the one providing endlessly for you previously? i dont need that, i dont need you.

dont even think that by saying im the one you love most, you really love me alot, you missed me and you really need me to hug you, then id be faltered.

i dont need your woes, nor your sweet fucking lies.. what am i to think? that previously, you possessed me like i was your prisoner, trying to monitor my every move, always accusing me of being out late with guys, was your way of loving me? i dont need that, i dont need you.

right now, i have a wonderful person with me, whom i feel indebted to, with all the love and freedom hes showered me all this while.. these i feel i rightfully deserve. this is what i need, this is who i love.

i know i may sound shrewd but still, you dont cut off all connections with someone, and then about 3 years later, you tell her you love her alot or you want to marry her. i wont say its dumb, but its impossible for me.

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your supergirl.
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